mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- write a screenplay I think Jeromy almost told me he loved me last night. I can't handle that yet. It's too much, too much. Afterward, he asked how I feel about him and I rested my chin on his bare shoulder and I stammered about how I've been alone for a long time and how scared I get and how I never have any idea about what to do or say or how to react to normal milestones in a relationship. What I meant was, "Yeah, I think I almost love you, too." Jeromy is a good man, strong and smart and funny and so kind and understanding that sometimes I wonder if he's faking it. Yep, I think I maybe-kinda-sorta love him, too. I've decided to write Crystal a letter and get this whole big fight over with. She's stubborn, I'm stubborn, but this time my pride won't get the best of me. She's my girl. I love her. Yes, I'm still angry, and I'm gonna tell her that, but I'm also going to tell her how much better BOTH of us are when we're together. 6:15 a.m. - 2003-08-16 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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