mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- into a world of bone One whole bottle of rum in less than 24 hours, can you believe that? One whole bottle of rum plus anti-anxiety meds plus anti-psychotics plus another couple of mood stabilizers. I think there always had to be a point where after all the hard climbing, I went sailing down the side of the mountain with my arms out like wings, flipping the whole world off with both hands and screaming, "FUCK YOU, I'M OUT OF HERE!" The saddest thing is I don't blame him. I'm angry but I'm not angry. I still worry. I still love that face, I love that smile, I love the kindness that shines from behind the clouds many days, but the rest? I just can't. I didn't cry or yell or argue, I just told him to go. He agreed. I've made a decision. I think I mean it. I just CAN'T. 11:06 p.m. - 2009-07-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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