mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Failing To Describe Tonight was great until my conscience got to me. Not only am I completely ready to give up the longest relationship I have ever had, but for man that I dont really know at all, and worse, one who is espeially vulnerable. I am such a shithead. Maybe the only reason that I'm interested in Andrew is because he's Zach's polar-opposite. Maybe it's cause I think he's just like me. I'm not big on love. Never have been. I mean, what is love, but reliance on somebody for something that only they can offer you? Love is weakness. And I am a jaded bitch-face. Really, I didn't mean all of that. Enough of my half-assed introspection. So, like I said, tonight was great. Not only did I make wads of money, but I got to see an old friend. Crystal came into Mugshots with... Candi!! Candi is, undoubtedly, one of the punk-rockinest Christian girls I have ever met. We had a lot of fun together, just doing dumb, girlie things. Once, we went to FAO Schwartz at midnight and bought a bunch of Furbies, like three each. Oh yeah, and once I inadvertantly caused her to wreck her car! Fun! We're all going out to dinner together on Monday night. Zach can't come. I think I will break up with him soon. I know I need to. It feels wrong to lie about how I feel. 12:41 a.m. - 2002-05-23 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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