mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- into the sea The last entry I wrote was just the perfect length and it was full of interesting information and ideas and you would have absolutely loved it. I realized something last night-- Kevin (the one who inspired that mini-heartbreak mentioned in the last entry) isn't really all that special. I mean yeah, he is pretty great in a zillion different ways, but somehow I had convinced myself that he was the only one like that in the whole world, which is obviously a big load of shite. Last night, for example, I sat with three incredible people-- one I've known for a long, long time, and two new ones-- and I felt awkward and nervous and weird, and they actually made an effort to make me comfortable. They tried. And wow, that was a nice feeling, when at the end of the night I got hugged by one curly-haired little cherub of a woman and one cold-armed boy with an unwavering gaze and then, the best, one from an old friend, warm and familiar. I do love hugs. 12:06 p.m. - 2005-04-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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