mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- exchange it for a crown So, I fall in love with the wrong sorts of boys. I fall in love with strangers because I build them beautiful histories in my head. Is this an age-appropriate thing, worrying about being alone forever? Is this universal? Crystal told me that she thought I'd probably never find the person I'm looking for, that he probably didn't exist. Was I born too late? Too early? Am I supposed to be a ball of energy floating aimlessly around the universe? What? This is the way the air feels as it flows into your lungs. This is your heart beating against your ribs like a small bird flying feverishly into the bars of it's cage. This is each tiny neuron firing off into black water, this is your pulse, this is your asthmatic hacking cough and your sweaty hands and your aching feet and the headache you have at the end of the day. This is the prick at the backs of your eyes, the lump in your throat, the butterflies in your stomach. This is the way the blood feels as it pumps from your scalp to your shoulders to your ankles, telling you that you are alive. This is it. Please, please let me remember that. 5:17 a.m. - 2005-10-22 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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