mainsqueeze's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Daylight and Delight 10:57 at night. I fell asleep on Mom's comfy chair earlier tonight and slept for two hours. This means that right now, I am sucking down a giant cup of coffee so I can keep my eyes open long enough to get a few things done before I collapse in a headachey little heap on my bed. I have to study. Study study study. I will now confess something embarrassing: I am not pleased with my performance at school so far. My grades are not awful-- all B's-- but I just have not been able to focus. This seems to be an ongoing issue in my life. When I started school last month, I was so motivated and determined not to take for granted this second chance to try out a new life, but my energy has flagged significantly since then. Maybe it is because for the first time in years I have extra time left over at the end of most days-- like if you give somebody who has always been very poor a check for a thousand dollars, maybe they spend it on new shoes and books and cds and dinners and not the credit card bill that they should pay off. Focus. Focus. Focus. 10:59 p.m. - 2010-02-17 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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